Nostalgic Vibes

A few days ago I was laying in bed thinking about how fleeting and short life actually is. A lot of other thoughts crossed my mind like how one day I'll close my eyes and won't wake up and how will that feel and how much I'll miss family and just being alive.

Nothing morbid or anything, just the reality of being human. I thought about how I needed to call my mom and check up on her and stop being so rude to her at times. How maybe life isn't as stressful as I make it out to be and how I wish I could enjoy the little things more.

This all panned out in a matter of probably 20 minutes and then I fell asleep, but it's still been on my mind up until today. Also, probably because I watched 'About Time' with Rachel McAdams and I don't know the guys name, but it really made me think how I need to spend more time really enjoying all the moments of my life. It's easier said than done.

And even more recently my mom sent me a home video taken when I was about 6 or 7 and it made me wish we had more of those videos. My mom was a huge vlogger back in her day. She always carried a camera with her and recorded everyday of our lives, but unfortunately those videos are lost.

But who says she still can't make more now, and that's why I've undertaken to start this blog, and the podcast attached to it, and my YouTube channel, because more than anything , I really think I'm attached to the idea that these platforms are like a journal and memory capsules that I hope to share with my future kids or maybe because in a way they remind me of mom.

These projects are dedicated to my mother who supports every and all of my goals and dreams and who to this day still feels the happiest when I'm happy and sad when I'm sad. Anyways these are the nostalgic thoughts that have been running through my head and if you have a moment, I invite you to ponder about some of the things that bring up some nostalgia. Some longing for the wonderful past. Or at least the most wonderful parts of your past.

Maybe I'm in this mood because the air has become cooler and the days cloudy, and the leaves brown and dead. And because winter just makes you feel like it's time to let go to prepare for the new things that are about to happen.

-Ale